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My NEXT novel

So ya, my first isn’t even finished (with edits and rewrites) and I am working on my next (and the third in the series as well). Anyway, the female lead in the second book is Bianca. While brainstorming the kind of person (style, attitude, etc) I wanted her to take on this song came on my spotify You tube link for those who don’t have spotify.


She makes me shudder
She makes me shake
At night I think and I want to take her away
Rainbows are on her face
Visions of tattooed chains
Egyptian rain in my world
A princess on her throne

Queen of the nile
Love me like an earthquake
Queen of the nile
Please let me be your king

Down by the quiet sea
No tide of hatred calls to me
Queens last on through the time
I hope the stars say that she’s mine

Mysterious, delirious, I wonder if she knows
Mindtamer, magicmaker, fortuneteller of long ago

Queen of the nile
I dream all over you
Save me from all I fear
My pyramids they wait for you

I don’t know why, but I see this sort of gypsy-woman. Very free spirited, and happy. So go good with my Male MC Stephen- a “doesn’t believe true love exists” type of guy. He will see it does, when he returns to the states after a year overseas (he’s a high profile architect), and meets his brother (Alex)’s <REDACTED>  Daphne, and how crazy they are about each other. 

So ya, it’s nice to have some creative juices flowing, hopefully it stays that way.


Listening to- Dangerous Toys (Queen of the Nile and Gypsy (Black and Blue Valentine))



I have virtually none at this time. I really don’t know why, but i am having a hard time getting anything done. I have the desire, just not the mindset. I have this strong urge to draw, but it’s just not happening. I have been working on two scenes for my novel (one is OK, but too short at the moment, the other starts off great (2 paragraphs) then rambles pointlessly. It really sucks. I want to do these things, but every  time I think about writing or drawing, i just “let it go”.

I know I need to sit down and just do it, but for some reason I can’t. As I said I have been working on 2 scenes for my novel… well, one scene really has no point. I mean it does, but it seems aimless. It’s supposed to be a small glimpse into the mind of one of my MCs (main characters), but it really fell flat quickly. With my folks coming to visit in two weeks I think maybe I am stressed out about that, but I don’t know why. They have met Melanie (last year), I guess i still freak out about it.

Anyway, I need to figure out where this block is coming from and get my butt in gear.



listening to- Dangerous Toys

Novel progress

So, i have been doing a light editing sweep lately… tense fixes, and a little noting where things could be improved. It needs a LOT of work still, but I am enjoying the whole process. Maybe I was meant to write and not illustrate. Comic book writer not an artist..who knows maybe i suck at both.

Here I am

So, here I am. Hanging out at home (as usual)… with a nagging cough that has lasted about a month now. (pretty typical for me this time of year). Thinking about “stuff”. I have a really difficult time being a positive person most of the time. (Hell I don’t even 100% believe my header). I wish I could figure out how to motivate myself. I need to lose weight so I can get my GRS, I need to continue to work on my second graphic novel, I need to finish the first edit or my first novel and get on the rewrites, I need to flesh out the characters for my second novel and begin plotting it out… I need to do alot of things… I just don’t have any motivation.

I’m sure this sounds like I am whining, and i am to a point. I have tons of free time, but I have a hard time focusing on what’s important. I tend to use the internet, my cats, or netflicks to keep me from what i SHOULD be doing. I need to get back in with a therapist (it’s been about 2 months), and I still haven’t found a doctor with my new insurance. That whole situation has been VERY frustrating.

Anyway, I will get off my butt now and get a shower i DO have an errand to run, which I usually don’t have much issue getting done.

Listening to- Dangerous Toys


PS I added an artwork page (link at the top right).

Transition and being married

So ya… I am a Male to Female transgendered person. Or just a Trans-woman. I have been in transition for about 5 years (from the beginning of therapy)… i think lol. About 4 years on Hormone replacement therapy. I am relatively happy with my progress- I’d love a nose job and bigger boobs, but beggars can’t be choosers. I am hoping to get weight loss surgery this year and in two years (hopefully less) have my Genital Reassignment Surgery. That would, for me at least, conclude my transition.

On a slightly different note, in less than a month (February 2nd actually) my wife and I will have been married for 11 years! I feel, if anything, we are closer now, than we EVER we before. We are totally partners in crime now. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been easy, but we’ve made it through, and we are rockin it now.

I am sure I will get back to blogging more regularly, it’ll take me time to wind up like before.

Listening to- Stone Sour


Oh, here’s a link to my old blog

Blog Challenge

This idea came from a person on Absolutewrite a wonderful website for writers of all abilities and levels of notoriety.

What is the working title of your book? Butterfly- Daphne’s Journey (not set in stone for sure!) (I am planning two more- they all have a connection, but it is not a proper trilogy.)

Where did the idea come from for the book? It started as a romantic erotica story. My wife challenged me to write a straight romance novel… no QUILTBAG, no ‘tragedy”, etc.

What is the genre of the book? Romance

Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition? MC Daphne- Emma Stone (as long as she’s not adverse to sitting in the makeup chair to have tattoos added to her arms, legs, around her belly button, and over her heart).
MC Alex- Channing Tatum or Bradely Copper
Supporting character Peter- Neil Patrick Harris
SC David- Hugh Jackman

What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book? Two people from two very different worlds find love in each other…or do they?

Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency/publisher? Most likely self published

How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript? A month?

What other books would you compare this story to within your genre? No idea I don’t read romance

Who or what inspired you to write this book? My wife challenged me to write it as a “straight” romance (no QUILTBAG)

What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest? No idea… I suck at selling myself and my stuff.

For those NOT in the know- QUILTBAG=~~Queer Unidentified Intersexed Lesbian Trangender Bisexual Ally Gay~~

First Draft Done!

So, I finished the first (very rough) draft of my romance novel. It was a very interesting experience. I am taking a few weeks off before i begin edits and rewrites (On the advice of a fellow writer). I am currently brainstorming my next novel at the moment, but I am trying not to force it, as i don’t want to burn myself out. I think i did that with my graphic novel (Beautiful Tragedy).